staying up

im staying up because i cant sleep. reasons are there, a sick friend. hoping they can feel okay tomorrow. thanks to some strangers. a story i told that i couldnt tell right. i couldnt really explain. how good the blueberries tasted that day. how chilly it is tonight. how apologetic people can be for no real reason, other than that they are just sorry. very sorry. taught for the first time and i just feel a knowing - something certain that says ive found "a calling" i really dont know what a day might whisper but im listening and interested and im here, waiting.